::Got Fear?

I confess, all these people studying around me is making me nervous.

Perhaps it's fear. Fear of a lack of fear. Everyone going around, noses buried in books, worrying themselves sick over art projects and in short, scaring themselves silly. And suddenly, you stop and think, why the hell am I so calm? Is there something I haven't done? Have I not picked up the danger vibes that everyone is sensing?

Now, that is scary.

It's beyond the fear of knowing that you don't know enough. It's the fear of not knowing what you don't know, that probably isn't enough. It's the thought of everyone going home to be hermits in their enormous mountains of books and emerging with a brain chock full of facts and equations and countless A1s while you sit at home happily surfing porn and finally emerging with guess what, a brain full of porn.

It's like seeing snakes emerging from their burrows when you haven't even felt your foundations shake. You look around and wonder, what's happening?

And then it *hits* you. Prelims.

But why does it scare me so much? I'm not even going to JC.

Face it, fear is contagious.

Have you had your fear today?